I had my walls up so high because i didn’t want to get hurt again. I’ve been scared of letting people in, but i’ve decided to take risk. I felt like things were falling into place and it only felt so right to take those risks, risks i never thought of doing. So i slowly brought my walls down…afraid of getting hurt again but i’ve come to learn that everybody will hurt, feel pain, and etc. its a natural process..and you will heal, if not now, it will sooner or later.
Everyone knows, well my close friends knows that I like to give, I’m that type of person who will make you feel special if you mean soo much to me. They know that i give my all even though I don’t get things in return. =/
I never expect people to do things for me…but i always wonder…when will it be me? When will it be my turn in feeling special? When can i be the one that receives random stuff, notes, flowers on my door steps…receive unexpected things on valentines day, be asked out on new years, go out on dates like disneyland, or concerts or just to places where i never been. Or for someone to remember about my childhood and tries to recreate that to make me feel like im reliving it again. When will someone finally appreciate what I do and maybe you know…makes me feel special too? I actually never really had any of these stuff done for me before…but i always wonder. Will i ever receive the Love that I give to people?
